Tomorrow I’ll start my diet

Tomorrow I’ll start clean eating

Tomorrow I’ll start to skip x and work out for x minutes every day

Tomorrow I’ll buy a scale

Tomorrow I won’t fail at my diet




I tell myself this every night. I am growing tired of nightmares about my weight and looking in the mirror is becoming more and more devastating. The hours before I go to bed is when I make my game plan, listening to my ED tell me that dieting is more important than every one in my life. Around this time of day I love and trust my ED more than anyone. Im aware that this is all toxic but planning the next day to myself gives me a sense of comfort and control.

Everyday is the same. I do what I’m supposed to do. I eat my meals, I keep my food down, and I don’t work out. But each day it just gets harder and I don’t know how much longer I’m going to try.

I just want to be thin


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